What if they laugh?

March 9th, 2010

When I get ready to unveil anything in a public way — whether it’s an editorial in our magazine, a blog post, my Pecha Kucha presentation — I get cold feet, and behind the stage fright is the middle-school fear that people will laugh. At me. Maybe they do, but it’s never happened to my face so I don’t know why the fear is so intense. Evidently the reaction is not all that uncommon when people try something new. In Brainwashed: 7 Ways to Reinvent Yourself, Seth Godin attributes this to our lizard brain, that prehistoric part of our brain responsible for fear and rage, the part that resists change, urges us to stick to what we know, warns us not to stray off the well-traveled AAA route. Every bold thing I’ve ever done in life has always been accompanied by the lizard brain refrain that I’m bound to fail, fall on my ass or get laughed at for being presumptious or pretentious or just plain pitiful. I do have an inner redhead, but it takes an awful lot of coaxing to get her safely past that fear-breathing dragon. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.

3 Responses to “What if they laugh?”

  1. Jen says:

    I’ve been thinking about this same thing lately.

    Thank you so much for doing this blog. You are a bright breath of fresh air every day!

  2. Just make sure to keep your lizardy tail tucked in your big girl panties !!!!

  3. I never feel that way with my writing,but with my art, I always feel like I Don’t Belong.

    My greatest source of insecurity is my appearance, because in middle-school and in high school, they really did laugh.

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