Spring Feverish

April 10th, 2012

Although I haven’t lived in Kentucky since I left home at 17, I remember in spring how luscious it was and how the land helped shape my ideas of beauty at an early age. Lately, I’ve been singing along in the car with Loretta Lynn’s “Coal Miner’s Daughter” and the Country Strong version of “Silver Wings” by Garrett Hedlund, and I find myself relaxing naturally back into my country twang. After I moved away and around the country, I worked hard to eliminate my accent, wanting to blend in and not be thought a hick. I stopped dropping my “gs” and tried to get my speech to stand up straight instead of slouching and slurring. To this day, though, I’ll forget and order scrambled “aigs” for breakfast, shave my “laigs” and start a question with, “Do ¬†you reckon…”. When I belt out “Don’t leave me, I cry/don’t take that airplane ride” in a flat nasal drawl, I sink down into the girl I was — mostly innocent, hopeful, still unformed — and I feel at home in my skin for a little while in a way I never do out in the wider world. Sometimes I tease myself with the idea of moving back to Kentucky, but then I remember that home is where the hurt was, to paraphrase U2, and my longing for those open fields, dry stone walls and shady woods is best left pressed between the leaves of memory like the petals of a forever young, bright yellow daffodil.

2 Responses to “Spring Feverish”

  1. Last weekend I read Lee Smith’s “Fair and Tender Ladies” and was so caught up in Ivy Rowe’s mountain life. The colloquialisms and dialect that Lee Smith captures so perfectly echoed some of those I grew up with and reminded me of classmates from my rural mountain years.

    In the past few years I’ve slowly been sucked into the world of bluegrass and folk music. The Infamous Stringdusters, the Steep Canyon Rangers, and others. I like Americana and alt country music quite a lot. I only occasionally like Nashville country music. My iTunes includes all the Garrett Hedlund songs from Country Strong, performed by him, not by the professional singers on the “official soundtrack.” My favorite is Timing is Everything. I also love the song by Dustin Lynch, Cowboys and Angels.

    I don’t think about moving back to the mountains but sometimes I like to imagine myself hopping into a pickup truck and “scootin on over” to get closer, the way we did back in the day. : )

  2. nikki says:

    We’re definitely on the same wavelength!

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