April 10th, 2009

* Traveling unravels me. I never get any better at it. I hate being a nomad and living out of a suitcase, and it irritates me to be so boring. I have to go to Burning Man just to beat the banal out of my personality.
* I know I’m lucky to have a job even though we’ve all had to take paycuts, but I can’t help missing cashmere.
* I know pay cuts are necessary, but I get tired of being stoic about it. Sometimes I want to be a bitch about it instead.
* George Clooney leaves me cold. I’m kind of embarrassed by that.
* I thought the Sex and the City movie was stunningly boring. All those years of angst and soul searching and the best answer they could come up with was “happy ever after”?
* I’m sick of the Obamas’ dog. They should name it Anticlimax.
* I’m worried I’ll never have another idea as good as the magazine I started and sold.
* I’m always drawn to a Mickey Rourke, never a Mister Nice.
* Sometimes when I’m in therapy I think about what each minute is costing me.
* I hate hearing other people’s dreams and yet deep down I always think mine are oh so interesting.
* I’ve noticed that I’ve started leaving the periods off the end of sentences when I send emails. I think it’s because I feel so exhausted by technology and work lately. It’s my digital version of saying “whatever.”
* Postmenopausal zest is a huge scam. All the women I know who are over 50 are exhausted…but no one wants to admit it. Because we’re supposed to be perky until we die.
* Sometimes I cry in yoga. Sometimes it’s because I think I won’t get out of the class alive. Warrior One busts my ass every time no matter how many times I’ve done it.
* I love the Real Housewives of NY, CA and Atlanta, and I don’t care what that says about me. However, I may have reached my threshold with NJ.

5 Responses to “Secrets”

  1. Kate McLaughlin says:

    Used to pop into your blog now and again. Finally started getting your rss feed. I so relate to many of your posts. My favorite right now!

  2. V-Grrrl says:

    My husband loves routines and familiarity, but at 47 I’m not ready to settle for a life of reruns and “traditions.”

    I don’t have a big closet, but there’s enough room for me to get in there and cry.

    I resent the idea that because I love my family I should love cleaning up after them and keeping house.

    I don’t particularly enjoy watching my kids play sports or sitting in the car during practices or enduring dull school assemblies and events that everyone else is videotaping. Am I a freak for thinking it’s weird so much of my life is dedicated to WATCHING other people live theirs?

    I love being a mother but I hate being a modern parent.

  3. frida says:

    Love your secrets, V-Grrrl!

  4. Allegra Smith says:

    Amen, sista! I don’t watch tv. Not for over 20 some years. So I don’t know about the shows and I always turn the page when the photos of women who are in mho fashion victims come about. And you are not a one trick pony so stop the nonsense. The rest is a mirror for me, I don’t know about the bad boys, in the end they were never that bad.

    And as nanny used to say “we always fall in love with the firecracker and end marrying the candle”. Ah, the truth of the elders…sigh

  5. Kathleen Botsford says:

    I love these! Very honest and vulnerable not to mention funny and true!