Lucky Finds

April 29th, 2012

I was walking back from the coffee shop near my office recently when I just happened to see a stencil of a clover on the street and snapped a photo of it. I guess it was left over from the St. Patrick’s Day celebration, but I took it as one of those little messages the Universe likes to leave in your path when you’re in need of an mental bitch slap. As in, don’t forget how lucky I am to be taking a break from a job many people would kill for with a kind of pretentious iPhone camera in my pocket and an expensive handmade coffee drink in my hand. I generally take all those things for granted in the sense of just not thinking about them deeply enough. It’s as if I’ve become so used to them that I have an unconscious sense of entitlement, and I really really hate that. It not only cuts me off from reality, but it also insulates me from the possibility of astonishment around every corner. ¬†All the things and stuff I accumulate, like that daily complicated coffee order, distract me from bigger issues, deeper needs, the solitariness and yearning waiting at the heart of every life. What can I do without in order to live a richer life?

5 Responses to “Lucky Finds”

  1. Tori Walters says:

    “What can I do without in order to live a richer life?” First of all, guilt. You did earn your way to where you are. I don’t think you need to beat yourself up for every indulgence. Yes, you have a wonderful job people would kill for but it wasn’t given to you—you made it to where you are. Just keep trying to live in the moment, I know this can be REALLY difficult on some days, and I think the Universe will see the balance you are creating with gratefulness.

  2. nikki says:

    I wouldn’t know what to do without my guilt! Thanks so much for the kind words.

  3. I have a quote on my inspiration board “What you *don’t* need is as important as what you *do* need.”

    I’ve been fighting for work for the last four years. It’s been hard and frustrating and sometimes demoralizing, but not working regularly has had its perks too. So when I teeter on the brink about a Job I Didn’t Get, I think about what I gained by not getting it. It takes the sting off and reminds me how lucky I am, how rich my life is in other ways.

  4. nikki says:

    Always find your comments so helpful!

  5. Thinking about that quote and my comment above spurred me to write a blog post on it. Here it is:

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