University of One: Alchemy

January 15th, 2012

Remember how I said I wanted to go back to¬†Mojo Graduate School? Today I took the first step. Sunday morning when I usually lie in bed til late afternoon, I got up, got dressed and took my books and journal to Starbucks. I had some external motivation because I was meeting a friend for lunch, but for almost three hours I read about alchemy, wrote in my journal and made notes in a new tablet, drank coffee, plugged in my headphones and pretended I was in Paris. Listening to Keith Jarrett’s Koln Concert transported me back to actual graduate school at University of Virginia, having dinner at my T.A.’s house, hearing this album for the first time while fighting him off as he tried to pull off my pantyhose (!). And when I resisted (I thought he loved my mind, not my ass!), he snubbed me the rest of the semester because I didn’t put out (why didn’t I?) and made me feel like the bumpkin I was. But he gave me the lasting gift of introducing me to that cd, one of my Desert Island Discs, and life gave me the gift of a year at a university where I was able to delve, unfold, investigate, explore and gobble up things I had never dreamed of in my little life in Kentucky or my battered life as a wife. It was a year of sadness and confusion and failure but also one of growing up, growing out, growing forward. Maybe it’s impossible to recapture that particular fresh, fertile mind, but today glows because what I was learning took over my Self consciousness and let me soar for a little while. I’m looking forward to back-to-school Sundays.

One Response to “University of One: Alchemy”

  1. claire says:

    this is kick ass – your getting up and out and all the words you’ve written. stellar.

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