Nightly News

August 5th, 2010

* Sometimes I don’t brush my teeth before bed, but I feel so guilty I get up in the middle of the night and do it.

* My recent bedtime reading has been books about death on K2, the second highest mountain in the Himalayas. Problem is that I’m so freaked out, I can’t get to sleep.

* I have to have white noise to drown out my overbusy brain at night. Still I often wake up and write a note to myself in the middle of the night which I can’t decipher in the morning. Still wondering what “buspry” means.

* I have a great fear of a giant Palmetto bug crawling on me in the night. I’ve lived in SC since 1985 and I’m still terrified of these Jurassic Park insects.

* I’m not a morning person, but I have a job that starts at 9am. Brutal, inhuman, demoralizing!

* When I took Ambien, I would get up and eat in the night, apparently still asleep. When I woke up one morning sprawled out in a pile of cracker crumbs and walnuts like the last one to leave a Roman orgy I knew I had to give it up.

* Now that I have a foundation under my Temperapedic mattress, I need a ladder to climb into bed. I feel like the girl in The Princess and The Pea, my second favorite fairy tale. My favorite is the gruesome and Grimm little tale of Little Red Riding Hood. No wonder, then, that I love grisly murder mysteries and true-life tragedies as bedtime stories.

* I’m not a cuddler and I feel bad about it. Coming home to my own bed and bedroom is always like a big sigh of luxury mixed with a little loneliness. I’d like to be a hugger, and I wish it came naturally to me to call someone “hon” or “babe,” but it just doesn’t. I guess I need to meet either an equally repressed man or one who is naturally demonstrative. But still, I really don’t want to call anyone “hon”.

* I spent five or so years living with the wrong lamp. I loved my handcarved hula girl but she was just so tall that I had to sit up out of the edge of sleep in order to turn the damn thing off and then I’d be wide awake again. I just gave her away and I miss her eccentricity.

2 Responses to “Nightly News”

  1. I’m a cuddler married to a non-cuddler. It’s not easy, and I’m not being funny when I say that. My kids (teens) are very affectionate and so are my pets. Good thing!

  2. Emily says:

    I’m with V-Grrrl. I was clicking over just to say that, in fact. Except he’s the cuddler. It’s really hard on both of us.

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