My 2012 Word

January 2nd, 2012

I try to choose a word each January to guide or inspire me for the coming year, and I feel a great pressure for it to be a brave or uplifting  or inspiring word. A word that tells the world I’m a kickass kind of woman. But sometimes I feel like I’m faking it. Yes, I would like to say that my word for 2012 would be FORWARD or YES or MORE, but I have to admit that many days I just feel small, stuck and confused. I want to be a Joan of Arc/Gloria Steinem/Frida Kahlo woman, but I am so often scared, little and insignificant even though I want to see more, feel more, do more, make more, be more. This year, I might take a step downward, go deeper into the darkness of little me instead of pretending to be superwoman. My word might be OPEN — scary in itself, because when you leave a door open, you don’t know what will come in or leave. A liminal space, a threshold, a place of ambiguity that ‘s difficult for someone like me who wants things to be black and white, clearcut, certain.

One Response to “My 2012 Word”

  1. My word is NOW. Not in a Veruca Salt way, but more in a mindful, “live in the moment” way. Being present. In the NOW. I’m not very good at it, but am going to try.

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