Mount Reality

July 31st, 2010

I came back from the “wilderness,” a week in and around Yosemite, to find an email that my mailbox was too full, my mortgage payments for the last two months somehow hadn’t been recorded and a cryptic letter from the IRS that I owe the government $3,000 plus for some reason that remains mysterious no matter how often I read the message. To compound my misery, I stepped on the scale to find that after a week’s worth of grueling hikes, I literally had not lost an ounce of weight. I cried for about 10 minutes (I’m a failure at everything!), went back and read my post about the 5-Year-Perspective (applying, applying, applying) and restrained myself from rushing out to buy a Frosty at Wendy’s (don’t do it!). I know all of this is fixable, and even the weight has its up-side — at least I didn’t gain any. Seems I’m just getting a larger post-vacation slap of reality than usual. Being disconnected from television, work and any responsibility other than getting to the top of the next oxygen-sucking trail meant living moment to moment instead of fake crisis to fake crisis. The real uphill slog comes when I’m home. I hope that when I wade into all this bureaucratic mess next week, I remember sitting with my feet in a clean ice-cold, snow-fed river, the color of sun-bleached grass on the hillside, a coyote pausing by the road to give me a look, the mountain half in shade, half in light — just like life.

One Response to “Mount Reality”

  1. gloria says:

    Hey, you are not a failure. Just be who you are and love life because it is just too short. I love Yosemite, it is awesome. Take care and have a great week.

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