Here’s to Now

December 14th, 2012

 

Today, the media was replete with national bad news, senseless death and the destruction of innocence, and yet we go on. Sometimes it’s hard to understand how humans persevere, whether it’s related to tragedy that happens far away or personal loss and grief. How do we stand it? ¬†What we’re capable of enduring perplexes and exalts me at the same time. Death and disorder have been fairly faithful companions of mine starting at a young age when I wasn’t equipped to deal with it in any way. Thank god for my “brave companions of the road.” Somehow I stumbled through those years, lurching from one friend’s hand-hold to another to make my way to the next morning and the next and the next. Tonight, I met a good friend for dinner — mussels, butter, warm bread and broth. We don’t get to do it often enough, because mostly we’re both just too focused on surviving, making money, making good, getting ahead, getting by, getting some sleep, getting to tomorrow. So it was a small sheltered moment of grace — blessed by sharing food and wine, truth and confidences. I try to remember to string those moments together to create invisible prayer beads that I can count on when the wild, turbulent world threatens to take me under. When we touched glasses and said “Cheers,” I think what we really meant was “Here’s to now!” To everlasting, always happening, beautiful and irreplaceable now. Amen.

 

2 Responses to “Here’s to Now”

  1. Our “brave companions on the road” are…everything.

  2. nikki says:

    Yes, they are…and I sometimes take them for granted.

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